September 14, 2010

Another Baby

 

I already put this out there on Twitter and Facebook, and 'tis true - we are expecting our second at the end of February! This pregnancy has been very different than my first. Not as smooth, a few scares, days of bed rest, generally more worrisome. I am thankful that everything is okay and so far baby seems healthy.  I am not sure how I made it through a Summer of weddings, but thanks be to God I did. 

I never really wrote about this on paperpony, but last August I miscarried at 12 weeks. It was a sad time and probably the saddest I have been in 10 years. I think that has a lot to do with my blog posts gradually falling off to almost non existent for awhile. I didn't feel much like sharing about photography or home decor when I didn't really feel like I could share the biggest thing that was going on.  It's difficult to know what you should/shouldn't talk about on a blog, especially when the blog is also for your business.

After reading a few posts from other photographers about very personal things on their blogs, I thought it was important to talk about this and say "hey, this is what has been going on for the last year". I know miscarriage is very common, but that doesn't diminish the sadness or difficulty. It took me a long time to not think about it every day and to even think about being pregnant again.

This pregnancy was a bit of a surprise, but it has been good. And I have had to trust God a lot. In the end I see that His timing is always more perfect than mine.

So there's the heavy part of this post : ) I am feeling really good now at around 16 weeks and feel a new surge of energy and inspiration. Some of that energy is going into figuring out what to wear every day as I am already having to say goodbye to my favorite closet staples...
 
Fashion doesn't seem as prego friendly as last time, just my observation. So far it hasn't been too awful, but it is still early.  For now Maxi dresses are my friend.

Thanks for reading and letting me share this here. My clients from last season and this season have been so gracious and understanding - this has not been taken for granted and I feel so blessed to work for such kind people. I have five more weddings this year and 2010 has been a great season.  I am expecting a good 2011 as well and trusting that it may be so.

19 comments:

Alexis said...

SO thrilled for you :)

Ruth said...

you are just the best photographer, i don't know how you do it all. this new little one is definitely in our prayers!

michellewoo said...

You're truly brave for sharing, Raya. Perhaps someone reading this who had the same experience will feel less alone.

And ... CONGRATS! Hope to continue following your journey :)

Josephine said...

It was brave of you to share your tale Raya. I've been visiting your lovely blog since B was born and had wondered where you'd 'gone'.

I'm sending lots of healthy vibes your way, and hope the rest of this pregnancy is happy and smooth ;-) Congratulations to all the family!

swell.life said...

congratulations raya, such happy news! thanks for sharing so candidly about your miscarriage. i can't even imagine...
praying all goes well from here on 'til february! perfect timing to be back in action for next wedding season. ;)

Madi said...

Congratulations Raya!! So happy for you and your family :) Thank you for sharing, I've missed you and your blogging!

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through but so excited about what's to come! You look great and I hope you're feeling good! I'll be thinking about you and your little one.

and you're totally right, maternity wear kinda stinks right now!

Erin said...

Raya,
Thanks for sharing about the baby you lost last year. I didn't know. I am sorry! I had a miscarriage last year, too. And, ever really knew how to share that with people. It felt strange to bring up, somehow. I hate that it was hard to say. But, it was. You are brave to share here. Thanks!
And, I am praying for this new little baby. We'll have babies right near the same time again!

ink and post said...

yay yay yay! i'm so excited for you and hope things continue smoothly. can't wait to see you :)

.::. ariane phillips .::. said...

Woo hooo! Congratulations! Keep on truckin'!

Dana said...

I'm glad you've addressed the "personal vs business" issue for photographers who are people and not a "company"...i was going to email you for advice recently on a similar issue (since you were so helpful with the "What do I wear??? conundrum...); my partner and I didn't know how to address his accident (which will prevent him from shooting the rest of the year) and whether or not to share what was going on. The proper people were notified but there's this weird divide of whether or not to "let it all hang out" on the blog, even though the clients you already know, know, but when potential clients are judging you!!!

I also have to add that since I've been reading (gosh, what, 3 years now?) I've really, really loved the personal little peeks into your life outside of just someone's photographer; and in my opinion those peeks would definitely encourage me to want to work with you, as I would see you as a real person (who is adorable and creative!! :)) and not just a "business."

Good good good good luck and I can't wait to see another round of bump shots! [um...and I have to admit, the first thought was of that little matching apron set you bought a few years ago......] :)

dana d

Jenn said...

I'm so excited for you and your family.

Setting personal boundaries on a blog can be really complicated and I imagine even more complicated when, as you said, your blog is part of your business. This is a really well written post. Personal but not uncomfortable. You're wonderful. :-)

kristin said...

congratulations, i know i don't *know* you, but i'll be praying for the next few months to go well. i have missed reading your entries that were once so frequent. thanks for letting me into your life, i know how you feel! (for my own version of the same situation)

Jo said...

congrats raya and condolences for the baby that was only yours for a short while. i'll be thinking about you and sending lots of happy, healthy vibes your way!

Making it Lovely said...

Congratulations on the expanding family! I'm sorry to hear of your struggles too, but glad that things are going well now. Best wishes for a happy and healthy pregnancy.

Kelly said...

i follow your blog a ton and Love it! Raya (which is SUCH a pretty name) i am so glad you were so candid with your story. My heart goes out to you - but I am also thrilled for you that you have this great new addition coming to your family! congrats!

raya said...

Thanks everyone for your words. I check the comments every so often and EVERYTIME I get teary-eyed. I felt really distanced from the online/blogging community for awhile, but the support you give reminds me how wonderful it is. I will keep sharing and thank you for reading!

Flush Designs said...

It was so nice to see you the other night. You look great!!! Thank you for sharing your story with me earlier and with the world. It is important for all women.. xo

Orjana said...

What a sad and happy post all at once. Wishing you and your family lots of luck and happiness!